fadedstar

.wElCoMe. scream sweet nothings into my ear, darling. Leave the scissors by the table, and paint the silence black and white. She used to wear ribbons in her hair, and her dad taught her to ride a bike. When did she get to be so tall? She cries for the forests, because the trees have feelings too. And she cries for her innocence, because it didn’t deserve to be thrown away. The fires are beautiful. but the flames aren’t friendly. And don’t tell me you’ve never run through wet grass in bare feet before. So cross your heart and hope to die, I’ll do the same, leave the scissors on the table and paint something we can feel. Paint the I love you’s and the memories, the laughter and the music. Paint forgiveness and heartache. Paint the moment when everything changed. Paint the silence in color this time… and appreciate the fine art of a beautiful death. www.fadedstar.friendpages.com I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately... All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind. I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do, or who I'm supposed to be.. I don't want to be anything other than me.

cherish these days, enjoy every breath, like it will be the last of your life... and never look back, never look back, 'cause you won't forget why you cried.

there is a hero in all of us

He's always closing his eyes, like it hurts to look at things

p i c t u r e s

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j o u r n a l

stop me and steal my breath and tell me that we belong together

eyes are the windows to our souls, and fake smiles are the blinds. 4 | | | . m e . | | |3 Being yourself in a world that tries day and night to make you like everyone else is the hardest battle. One that every human can fight. And keep on fighting. -arielle - november 6th movies - - donnie darko, good will hunting, life as a house, x men, x men united, the butterfly effect, the shawshank redemption, rain man, garden state, the perfect score, meet the parents, dude where's my car, anchorman, dazed and confused music - - from autumn to ashes, gratitude, straylight run, silverstein, waterdown, glasseater, between the buried and me, river city rebels, forever changed, hidden in plain view, stutterfly, closet monster, backdoor friend rodney, project bluebook, counterfit, farewell to february, socratic, rise against, from first to last, sophomore, like yesterday, i can make a mess like nobody's business, fight paris, bedlight for blue eyes, the early november, the spill canvas, boxcar racer, underoath, anberlin, fall out boy, relient k, and then i turned seven, boy's night out, daphne loves derby, hawthorne heights, senses fail, brand new, the used, taking back sunday, a static lullaby, bleed the dream, silverstein, sugarcult, the killers, dashboard confessional, blink 182, greenday, story of the year, yellowcard, new found glory, my chemical romance, emery, funeral for a friend, finch, oasis, AFI, billy talent, death cab for cutie, nada surf, bright eyes, NIN, the all american rejects, matchbook romance, keane, third eye blind, phantom planet, bright eyes, the 88, gavin degraw. happiness is built on: music, one tree hill, the college life, les amis, pajama pants, gum, march break, juice boxes, x men, slides, gillian's basement, concerts, friends with benefits, if people weren't so good at pretending to be happy maybe they'd be better at actually being happy.

so wear me like a locket around your throat, i'll weigh you down, i'll watch you choke, you look so good in blue... you look so good in blue.

Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to mourn everything worth mourning. The broken laughs, the empty hearts, the secret tears and the ones who don’t love us back. There will always be that one girl wearing green among the black dresses. and the other women might stick up their noses, but deep down they all know, she’s the only one there who knows herself. Everyone wants to be in love on Christmas, and not the kind of love that’s special like getting dressed up to see a play downtown, but the kind of love that’s special like snow on your birthday, when your birthday’s in July. Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to mourn the unmailed letters, and the lonely decembers. The children ask, Does it ever go away? They’re asking about heartache, and you know better than to lie, so you answer truthfully and you say, No, it doesn’t, it doesn’t go away. One day you’re jumping in puddles, and the next thing you know , thirty years have passed, and your telling your kids to walk around them. Everyone is taught to look both ways before crossing the street and to talk quietly in the library, but no one ever learns anything that matters, like how to keep breathing when your heart breaks in half. Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to remember what it’s like to be alone and to listen to the silence as the casket is lowered and the mother starts to cry, and the aunts try to comfort her, and the father doesn’t cry, and no one tries to comfort him, and the silence shatters, like a thousand pieces of paper ripping in half, and the day you danced in front of the three way mirror seems like a lifetime ago, as the father starts to cry, and no one knows what to do. Dearly beloved we are gathered here today to mourn the loss of yet another empty soul for whom death was the only way out.

Sometimes its hard, you don't
wanna look over your shoulder,
'Cause you dont want to
remember where you've been.
There'll come a time you'd die
if you could only hold her,
I know that's were I am.
Listen with all your heart,
Hold it inside forever.
You may find all your dreams,
Have already come true...
Look inside and find the part
thats leading you...
Thats the beat of a heart.

I hope that when the world comes to an end, i can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to.

. lunacy fringe - the used .